(Note, edited to fix date problems, I don't know why I got so confused by the dates, but there you go)
Hi everybody! Its been a long long long time, and quite frankly I never thought I'd need to return here, but, here we are.
In 2008 I tried SLD for the first time, failed to get past the first few days (I blame the oil, I was using ELOO, and it was entirely unpalatable), but picked it right back up in early 2009 (using canola oil). When I started, I was at my all time heaviest, 284 lbs. By the beginning of 2011 I was somewhere around 214. At that time I decreased my oil to a tablespoon a day, and was doing other things as well, couch to 5K running, the Gabriel Method, eating chia seeds in my water, etc.
In May of 2011 I met a guy who I thought was everything I ever wanted. He convinced me to move from Connecticut, USA all the way to San Francisco, CA, 3000 miles away. I left my family and friends and moved to CA with him in August, where we broke up almost immediately.
For whatever reason, this experience did not break me, perhaps it was a high from having lost so much weight and having found a new stronger me, but I actually succeeded in San Francisco on my own. I found a great job within weeks, and made my own circle of close friends. However, the distance from my family (I have children) was too much to bear, and so early in 2012 I returned home.
At some point in late 2011, I was buying super skinny jeans (this was the fashion in SF), I was able to wear size Large tshirts and found them to be voluminous on me. I have no idea how much I weighed at that time because I didn't own a scale, didn't go to the doctor, and didn't CARE. It was a weird feeling, having spent so much of my life obsessed with my weight, but for whatever reason, I had absolutely no worries about my weight and it obviously helped. I also had totally stopped doing anything SLD. My last gasp effort at it consisted of drinking water with chia seeds in it on the way to work, that stopped when I ran out of chia seeds.
Then, unfortunately, my moving home coincided with a big depression. My friends, who I assumed would welcome me back with open arms, kind of abandoned me, perhaps being stung by my prior abandoning of them (you know what they say about Karma), I also had a harder time finding work than I thought I would, and as such, I wound up staying at my mother's house, something that I, as a 34 year old independent man, has not done since I was 18.
During this time I began to gain weight. After securing a job, I joined a gym hoping that would help. I managed to keep my weight steady at around 220, gaining and losing the same 3 or 4 lbs, but with no real results.
I quickly grew discouraged. I'd try a diet plan, do alright, lose a few lbs, get discouraged, and fall off the wagon (does this sound familiar or what?).
Early this year, I finally began dating again. I've been with the same guy now since March, and things are going well. Well everything except for the fact that he's got all those old eating/diet habits I had. He's done every diet too. He and I are not helping one another, as we tried Weight Watchers together. He lost 13 lbs right away, I lost 8 and then GAINED IT BACK while staying on my points. He cheated on his diet, and still lost. We got into a fight about it, he went off the diet and gained back everything he lost and then some. I don't blame him for this, he's just trapped in a cycle of losing and gaining and dieting and pigging out. I understand, we've all been there before, why else would we be HERE?
Little more than a month ago, I had a doctor's visit. I weighed 234. 234 is my MAGICAL PLATEAU WEIGHT. I spent most of my college days stuck at 234. When I plateaued for several months doing SLD the first time I was 234. That weight scared me. Then my lab tests came back. High cholesterol. During any doctor's visits during my SLD journey, everything was perfect. Now I have high cholesterol? Uh oh!
So I did what anyone crazy enough to try anything would do. I decided that maybe I should give a gluten-free dairy-free vegan lifestyle a shot. And you know what? I lost 11 lbs. In the first two weeks.
In the last two weeks...I've gained all that back. And guess what I weighed this morning?
234. How'd you guess?
So on my car ride into work today I thought good and hard. And I decided that I wasn't going to let this get the best of me. I have a bottle of canola oil, I have newly purchased nose clips. I am READY to start this again.
I'm not going to reinvent the wheel here. I lost at least 50 lbs of my initial weight gain having canola oil in the morning, nose clipped, brushed teeth while nose clipped and took my vitamins, and then have coffee as soon as my hour is up. When my AS was good, I could totally not eat anything again until dinner, when I'd have a totally reasonable dinner, evening snack, and that's it. I'm hoping to get back to that point.
So here I go. Tomorrow morning, when I wake up, I'm going to start again. Wish me luck!