Happy New Year everyone!† This year may you effortlessly achieve your goals.
Signs that I know Iíve made it:
I no longer cared about posting in the I Made It
section.† I realized that I needed to post here to give other folks hope and incentive that I no longer need.† I now understand why a lot of people donít bother to post that they made it and instead just disappear.
I no longer know exactly what I weigh and I no longer care.† Hey itís somewhere in the teens
! This is the first time in my adult life that Iíve weighed in the teens. I passed very quickly through them as a teenager. Last year my New Yearís goal was to: ďGet under 130 pounds and stay thereĒ (http://boards.sethroberts.net/index.php?topic=5891.0
) Well not only did I stay under 130 but I made it under 120! I stepped on a new scale a few weeks ago and decided that the scale must be broken because I weighed too little instead of too much.
I am no longer afraid to eat as much of I want of whatever I want. (This might be the best Shangri-la benefit of all.)
I really am a size 4 now. I had bought yet another pair of inspiration jeans that were a tight size 4. I wore them for the first time and they fit comfortably. All my tight pants fit comfortably and many are now too loose. Iím going out to a New Years Eve party and will be wearing some pants that say size 2. (They must be a big size 2!
) Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine I would wear a size 2.
I didnít get skinny, I just got small. I have small hands, feet, bones and body structure. I feel integrated now, like all of me is the right size. My hands and feet are no longer too small for my body, because my body is now small.
I feel a bit sad and nostalgic to no longer be a part of the club. I didnít realize how much our striving for a common goal connects us together. Iím happy to be no longer striving to achieve some weight loss goal. What a relief! But I also feel a little sad about losing the striving, and the wonderful connections and support that it brought with all of you. My focus is shifting to other areas of my life. Though perhaps Iíll join an exercise challenge in the spring. This past month my muscles have lost their hardness. I look forward to running and toning my muscles again during the warmer months. But right now Iím taking it easy mostly because of an arm injury. Itís a relief to not be striving with exercise, too.
My plan is to keep doing what Iíve been doing for the next 3 weeks. Then I go on vacation to Florida for 2 weeks and Iím thinking that I might not nose clip during that time, or will cut way back on my nose clipping and see what happens.
Well, with SLD you really can choose your weight. What an amazing gift to be able to weigh whatever you want. As I said back in March (http://boards.sethroberts.net/index.php?topic=5903.msg64927#msg64927
) and Seth quoted: ďAfter a lifetime of not weighing what I wanted, the idea that I can choose my weight is a stupendous dream for my mind to grasp. All along I've been hopeful, but not daring to believe in it, until it becomes real and lasting. But now I live with feeling happiness with my body, and that feeling is a priceless gift. Whether I gain or lose a few more pounds, it's that good feeling with my physical being that I most want to maintain.Ē Now I have the good feelings with my body AND
I weigh my chosen weight.†
Thank you again Seth Ė I can never thank you enough!† And thanks to all you.† Itís been a wonderful journey to my goal over this past year because of your good company.† I feel like I have many good friends here.† May each of you get to effortlessly choose and be any weight that you want.† †Wishing you each much peace and joy.† Some dreams do come true.