Well, I unfortunately had the opposite of a woosh. Do we have a name for that? A womp or a whack??? Iíd been feeling bloated and as though Iíd gained weight for awhile. However, my scale weight first thing in the morning remained faithfully the same. But then all of a sudden (post Tom no less) the scale jumped up 3 - 4 pounds! Usually bloat gives way to weight loss after TOM, so it was a real shock. Also, I was eating a lot less than normal, making the weight gain a double shock. I seriously thought that my scale had broken, but unfortunately my tight fitting clothes confirmed the numbers on the scale. Itís definitely depressing (and seems so unfair) to be eating perfectly (not consuming any sugar or grains, or overeating in any way) and then to gain weight instead of losing it.
I think whatís happened is that I no longer have a lot of intestinal worms consuming a lot of calories. (See this post if you want to learn about my worm saga: http://boards.sethroberts.net/index.php?topic=7603.msg98750#msg98750
) Iíve done three rounds of deworming and think I could probably use one more. Iíll spare you the gross and graphic details, but lets just say that Iíve been eating for A LOT more than one, for probably a long time now. It's intense that I had so many worms and had no idea about it. Also, chances are likely that perimenopausal hormone fluctuations might be contributing to weight gain as well.
Anyhow, Iím eating less than half of what I use to eat, and am feeling daunted by the idea that I might not be able to eat normal amounts of food anymore. So Iíve removed myself from maintenance mode once again, and have returned to nose clipping as much as I can. I realized that gaining back all the weight that I lost would be really devastating to me. So Iím going to do everything I can to prevent that from happening. Even if it means not eating very much for awhile. Iím also going to try to increase my levels of exercise. Iím thinking that short bursts of exercise throughout the day might help to increase my metabolism.
I realize that Iím facing psychological hurdles. AS is good, so itís not physically that hard to be eating less. I think that the challenge is mostly mental, emotional, and social. Itís very hard socially to not be able to eat much. Plus, I never wanted to become one of those people who hardly ate anything. Well, I now get to face and deal with that fear.
The enlightened tasting experimentation continues to go well. Iíve been making regular and noticeable progress. It doesnít make sense to me that it would be causing or contributing to weight gain. But I have mulled over the possibility. Iím hoping that the combo of enlightened tasting and nose clipping will help lower my set point and bring my weight down once again.
I had one trouble free year of maintenance. But this second year of maintenance has been so much more difficult than losing the weight to begin with. I never thought that maintenance would be even harder than weight loss itself. I still am confident that Iím making good decisions and moving in a good direction. I feel like my addiction to carbs has lessened dramatically. Itís an incredible relief to no longer be craving so many foods that I was seriously addicted to. Hopefully, down the road this will all pay off. But it sure is a rocky path right now.