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Del:
I'm so excited!  I'm at 200.0 lbs as of today and I'm just breathless with glee because that means in the next 48 hours I'll be UNDER 200.0 lbs for the first time since . . . since . . . since a very long time ago.  But that's not the point.

My cousin - whom I love dearly, I do - is getting married on October 12.  She's always been the pretty one.  Blond, buxom, beautiful in that Barbie-esque sort of fashion.  Her mother passed back in June, so my mother has been filling the void as best anyone can.  She's helped buy and alter the dress, plan the whole kit and caboodle, etc.  In this same vein of hysterical maternal planning, she took me shopping for a new dress for the wedding.  I ended up with a peach sheath dress (SHEATH DRESS - AAH!).  And I look GOOD.

So I'm standing there, twisting and turning in the mirror and grinning at the lovely dress and the lovely me in it and my mother starts sniffling and says "Maybe we need to find a different dress."  Shocked, I asked why and she says "Because you're prettier than the bride and I don't know if that's okay."  After much deliberation and a phone call to my father, we got the dress.

Thus, here I sit, caught in this awkward joy at my gorgeous new dupioni silk dress - peach, size 14 - this petty pleasure at finally being the pretty one, even if only to my mother and this mournful ache at the idea of being prettier than my cousin on this day of all days.

I love this dress.  I love the way I look in this dress and I love the way that makes me feel.  But despite the petty glee I'm guiltily squashing, I don't know if I should wear this dress.  I know I'm going to because my mother bought it for me and my father thought I looked lovely in it.  But a teensy part of me wonders if I should.

*snorts a laugh*  Strangely enough, it just now occurred to me that I never, ever doubted my mother's assessment that I did, indeed, look better.  And that's a new thought in itself.

Truly,
Del

shovelqueen:
Wear it, feel like a million bucks, and take lots of pictures.  Don't worry about the bride - it's her day and she'll glow in her own way. 

Post pictures - we'd love to tell you how fab you look! :D

Magpie:
Wear it, feel like a million bucks, and take lots of pictures.  Don't worry about the bride - it's her day and she'll glow in her own way. 

Post pictures - we'd love to tell you how fab you look!

I agree 100% !!  Relax, enjoy the day and enjoy looking fabulous - you have every right to!

losing-it:
You'll be beautiful, Del, and so will the bride. And both of you will be beaming with your own joys. Your happiness makes me feel so happy, too.

rps930:
Agree, Agree
Wear the dress, and congrats on the 100s, that's a milestone that you will remember long after the wedding pictures have faded.  So happy for you, enjoy yourself at the wedding, eyes will be on the bride, but bet a few will stray your way.

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